It's so lonely...

Went back home and found no one to hug my tired body ;_;

Traitor

Please suicide.

It's time to let go... for real.

I've been such a naive. There is just no way I can have all the happiness in the world. Hoping itself is a torture. Day by day goes with pain for keeping these hopes. I can't move on like this...

Now this is the time to let go. Now or never.

Time will answer everything so there's nothing to be afraid of. I'll just walk away silently and let the memories linger in both of our hearts. Those times we spent together were truly one of the happiest moments in my life, I will never forget.

I wish you a good luck with your lives.



...But I still remember your wish. The wish that made me cried in the most joyous tears. I feel and wish for the same as well.

Please be happy.

I've found her again

Perhaps I'm stupid. Or just plain crazy. I can't even determine my feelings toward her.

Once I said to myself that I hate her. I hate her with all passion I have in me. I even did all my best to get rid of her from everybody I care about. From the place we first met...

But even when I succeeded I still looking for her. Every once in a while I would type her name, e-mail address, instant messanger ids on Google trying to find her trace. If I hate her that much, should I be happy that she has gone from sight? Then why do I keep doing that?

A luck, perhaps a destiny, I found her again. Just as I thought, she wouldn't be able to get off the internet.

...I hated her. But perhaps it was nothing more than a result of burning wrath. Perhaps I was too disappointed of being lied to. Perhaps I was mad because she didn't come to me and tell the truth.

...I do not lie. I'd never tell a single lie. Even to her. I didn't lie when I told her I loved her. I cared so much for her and she's a precious sister to me.

I loved her perhaps I still do. And that's why I'm missing her now.

Mashi

He's the best boyfriend ever. ^_^

E...he... I could have said thousands of words about him and how I feel about him. But these are the best to express them :

I.
LOVE.
HIM.

After thinking that I might not see him for some days I had quite a nice time of nostalgia. We've known each other for around...nyem nyem nyem... half a year? He was falling for a fake person back then. Man, I still think that he was pretty stupid, but hey! He really is stupid! LAWL~~~

Well, anyway, I'm glad I had that problem with the chatroom that day. I wouldn't have talked to him if I hadn't~

I started to get the feeling that we would get along pretty fine after talking for a while with him. And I was right. Just a couple of months I already discover so much about him. I didn't even believe when he said that he was quiet in real life, LAWL~

Perhaps I have to thank him for this. Thank him for opening up to me. And thank him for accompanying me all this time. He's always been there for me every time I need him, and always be so understanding.

Mashi is perfect. As a lover. And as a pet. ^_^






There will be a continuation of this~