AD's Small World

5 More Days to Christmas Break

2010-12-17T13:26:00.000-08:00

And that also means 2 assignments left to do.

Oh, Life

2010-11-11T20:46:00.000-08:00

Who would have thought that university would be THIS hectic? I did. OK, not really, but I sorta knew it would be like this sooner or later. And it was much sooner that I thought.

No day passes without assignments, and everything requires me to buy expensive materials. Poster color, water color, linen, printings... These traditional works needs to end quickly, I'm in digital animation course, for crying out loud. >_>"

I'm not doing great. My scores are B's and C's, first A was the last one and it was the first assignment. During early days of uni, my goal was to get GPA above 3.5, I don't think I will reach it.

That, and I'm currently experiencing financial problem. It was my first time handling so much money and I blew most of it when I wasn't supposed to. o3o I guess it's fasting time next two weeks.

Future isn't looking good, wahaha.

Utau Oka Ar=Ciel Ar=Dor and Atelier Rorona & Totori Artbook

2010-10-26T05:54:00.000-07:00

So, after a month of waiting... finally!

Unpacking

Atelier Rorona & Totori Artbook, At3 Image CD Utau Oka Ar=Ciel Ar=Dor, and bubble wraps!

The unique look of that book which came with the CD got my attention, so I checked it out first.

Look at that magnificent cover! It's very detailed! The insides are lyrics with very amazing illustrations next to each of them! And there's a huge amount of Japanese text (which I can't understand at all), I'm guess it talks about each of the game's setting, looking at their names on the corner of the page. I would look around to learn about them, but I really don't want to get spoiled for At3. xD

And this is the CD itself. I love the way it looked like an ancient saucer from old times of Ar ciel~ Definitely gonna treasure this forever ^_^

I also took some photos of the illustrations inside the book, but for some reason they look better when I saw them in the camera so I decided not to show them here :S

Will blabber about the artbook later~!

Sanaeeeeeeee~

2010-10-09T02:01:00.000-07:00

My nendoroid Sanae just arrived today ^_^ And she's my first nendo ever, that makes her even more special! ^^

Such a cute smile~ That right hand actually can be used to make her hold stuff, like the wooden staff that came in the box.

Despite being a limited item, the paint work on her clothes and that snake wasn't very good. It was messy, you can't see it very well from this picture but there's a big visibly brush stroke on her chest.

Look she made me a cup of warm chocolate! ^_^

With this, my figure collection rose up to 2! I plan to buy more, of course. Nendoroid Reimu looks great, but it was priced even higher than this Sanae. I'm thinking of getting K-ON girls too, still pondering whether I should get figmas or nendoroids....

Classes

2010-09-28T09:01:00.001-07:00

... has already started. Since a week ago. They gave assignments even on first days. I've been doing good, I do them little by little everyday. I chose to be here and I'm not gonna fail at anything. And at least those homework are enjoyable. Drawing, making collages, writing essays about interesting issues... Everything makes those stuffs I learned at high school a 'big waste of time'.

Classes and the assignments eat a lot of my free time though. I have four days of classes in a week and last classes end at 5pm. Traffic jam makes the trip from campus to my dorm twice longer and usually I buy my dinner on the way, so I arrive at my room at 6pm. Shower, dinner, and cleaning up takes an hour. 7pm is when I start working on my tasks and I work till I feel tired at 10pm. After that I go to bed immediately because I don't want to risk my sleeping schedule anymore. The next day, I have morning class thus I must leave early. This routine repeats on weekdays.

Suddenly I'm gone from many online places. Ahahahaha, but at least I'm doing just well! I still keep in touch with friends too. Willy (Fayharn) seems to be the only one I talk with regularly though.

Oh, some of my works are very artistic, yes yes! I'd love to upload them once I got the scores, which I hope they'll be good enough for A's. :)

Hopefully I can find more time to write in here. I'm missing some people I used to talk to!

Starting New Life in the Capital and University Orientation

2010-09-08T14:14:00.000-07:00

August 2nd, was my first day living in the capital. I moved to a 17-story luxurious tower, which is a student dorm, owned by the university's foundation. I stayed for around 2 weeks before going back to my hometown. And this be how my first two weeks in the capital went...

Being antisocial is hard, especially in a new environment. And I had nobody I knew going to same university. So, I tried to find some people via Facebook, lol, everybody has one nowadays. Oooh~ Thank Goodness I found someone in my class that turned out to be on same floor as me. It's really great, at least I didn't have to do things all by myself in the start. :)

Orientation's briefing on 9th. In a week, I got acquainted with more people, mostly with those on same floor. They all came from various places in the country. Oh, all sort of people... O.o Sometimes I forget who came from where.

Orientation, Freshmen Enrichment Program. My temporary class was CBN14, led by three Buddy Coordinators, upperclassmen. They're awesome people who know when to be serious and how to have fun. Heck, the class was full of people like that. Hahaha, nice! Each day was never boring at all!

CBN14, FEP class

FEP was divided into four session. I got the third. There were 80 students in my class. So I haven't met the 3/4 of my real class... WOW. More than a hundred people in total... Damn lot of people, no wonder Jakarta is crowded.

Last day of the third session was August 17th, coincided with the Independence Day so we carried the special ceremony in Kijang campus, thanks to this, we got to see all the university campuses. I already forgot how to get there though, it's deep into the small streets and I only remember taking a lot of turns. OTL

Hm~ I guess that's all I can say about the orientation. Life in capital's being halted for a moment since I'm currently at my hometown. Classes begin in September 20th!

A Slice of Update

2010-09-08T14:05:00.000-07:00

I wonder where my writing spirit has gone to. I've done many things since the latest entry in this blog, even created lot of articles in mind, sadly none of them made it into realization. Well, let's see if I can cover these past 3 months now.

More posts are coming, peoples. Can't let this place be deserted anymore.

Saya Tidak Gila!

2010-06-01T13:15:00.002-07:00

Saya Tidak Gila!

Saya tidak gila, saya tidak gila, saya tidak gila!

Siapa yang menyebut saya orang gila? Saya tidak gila! Apakah saya terlihat seperti orang gila? Saya tidak gila dan saya yakin bahwa saya tidak terlihat seperti orang gila. Mengapa? Karena saya memang tidak gila!

Saya tidak gila dan tidak pantas diperlakukan seperti orang gila. Lantas mengapa? Mengapa semua orang melihat saya dengan pandangan jijik seperti itu? Saya tidak gila! Saya tidak layak untuk dipandang seperti itu. Saya makan makanan layak, tidak dari tempat sampah ataupun makan makanan sisa. Saya tidak makan makanan orang gila! Saya senantiasa berpenampilan sopan dan enak dipandang mata, tidak berpakaian compang-camping dan kumal seperti orang gila. Saya tidak memakai pakaian orang gila!

Lantas mengapa? Mengapa semua orang mengalihkan pandangan mereka begitu melihat saya? Saya memang tidak cantik namun wajah saya masih lengkap. Saya tidak berwajah mengerikan! Otot-otot wajah saya masih berfungsi dengan baik dan saya masih mampu tersenyum. Lantas mengapa orang-orang malah ketakutan ketika saya tersenyum pada mereka? Saya tersenyum ramah, bukan tersenyum gila! Hei semuanya, saya tidak gila!

Saya sukses. Hidup saya punya tujuan dan saya sedang melangkah untuk meraihnya. Saya sempat merasakan bermacam-macam kegagalan, namun saya tidak pernah menyerah. Saya tidak pernah gagal dan menyerah seperti orang gila! Saya masih hidup, dan itu artinya saya tidak gila!

Wawasan saya luas. Saya bersekolah sampai ke jenjang tinggi dan tidak hanya menimba ilmu dari sana. Saya pandai memainkan kata-kata dan logika. Saya berpendidikan! Dan orang yang berpendidikan tidak gila!

Saya tahu banyak hal dan memiliki pendapat sendiri. Pendapat saya tidak mudah goyah dengan pendapat orang lain dan saya juga tidak memaksakan pendapat saya pada mereka. Saya mengakui dan menghargai perbedaan! Saya manusia yang berperikemanusiaan, maka dari itu saya tidak gila!

Lantas mengapa? Saya memang berbeda, tapi itu tidak berarti saya telah kehilangan kewarasan saya! Sejak kapan pendapat mayoritas menjadi fakta? Sejak kapan berteguh pada pandangan dan pikiran diri sendiri menjadi dosa? Sejak kapan perbedaan membuat seseorang menjadi gila?

SAYA TIDAK GILA!

I've rebuilt My Kingdom for the Princess

2010-06-01T03:53:00.000-07:00

(May contain a spoiler here)

It has the usual cliche fairy tale story. But no villain in this, except some ghosts, cannibals, and polar bears, which can disappear just by building some temple and barracks in the town, lolz.

I'm not good at giving scores while reviewing, but I gave this game 3-stars in my Backloggery. While this counts as a mini-game, the gameplay is very challenging. And it's not just click-fest like those other time management games. We actually have to think our each steps carefully. One fatal mistake, as we might lose our chance of finishing earlier and expand the castle.

This is the level map. As you can see here, I couldn't finish all levels before set time runs out. In result, my castle isn't completed yet.

But it's still suitable for a princess to live in~

Tales of Me and My Studio

2010-05-25T10:48:00.000-07:00

Random comic I made. This fever really bores me... XD

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Note : AD's Studio is a page I made on Facebook to take requests :D

What does AD mean?

2010-05-16T19:36:00.001-07:00

It has lost its original meaning for quite some time already. But I like that username. It makes me hard to find on Google XD

Ask me anything

If beauty is a 50-storey building, in what floor would you be?

2010-05-15T09:59:00.001-07:00

Underground floor ;3;

Ask me anything

Would you open a cafe?

2010-05-13T13:19:00.001-07:00

If I have enough money and the business is looking good, I don't see why not :D

Ask me anything

"What's wrong with copying something that doesn't belong to you in the first place?"

2010-05-13T12:19:00.000-07:00

Nothing. There's nothing wrong with it. As long as we don't break the existing rules and violating the agreed terms.

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Well, everyone. I have been having this thought for a while now. Ever since I found and decided to join (for the sake of looking around) this group on Facebook.

"-ANTI__COPYCAT-"

That is the name of the group.

Just tell us who is your copycat, and we will finish her/him off
=D

And that is what is written on the group's description.

wiTH ~♥, wE goNNa Take ouR ReveNge

wITh ~♥, we goNNa Take YouR Revenge

wiTh ~♥, we gONNa geT riD oF COPYCAT!!!

WE HATE COPYCAT'ers ♥
u copycat ???
we can kill u ^^♥

And that is what written on the greeting box in the group's main page.

So, have any certain initial thoughts after seeing those? Well, other than whoever wrote that up must fails in their English class.

What they mean by copycat, is the people who copy one's Profile Picture and put it up as their own. But mainly are edited pictures of anime characters. Basically, this group is where people name a copycat so the other members can go and "punish" this person.

This is obviously wrong. Everything about this group is wrong.

Firstly, they are openly and publicly threatening a group of people.

Secondly, their reason for the threat is absolutely ridiculous. Their targets are people who;
1. Copy edited anime pictures. Just because we did some edits doesn't make the picture completely and rightfully ours. And like how we can copy the original pictures from the internet and do things to them, other people can do the same to ours as well. I mean, as long as we aren't the original artist, we have no rights to complain if things like that happen.

2. Tagged themselves on someone's pictures. This one is... seriously. WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH THIS? Not only this is a feature that provided by Facebook itself, users can disable this feature from the settings.

I am against the whole idea of this group and its whole self-righteous acts. Proud of your hard works? The original artists did HARDER works than you and you don't hear them complaining of people taking their works and edit them. And if you're proud of it then grow up and calmly express while cleverly explain your dislikes to the problematic person directly.

Chibis

2010-05-09T14:34:00.000-07:00

So I stopped myself from being Lazy and looked up for some lineart tutorial! :D

Thanks to this awesome tutorial now I can make neat lines using the Pen Tool in Photoshop! *blows a kiss to lumi-mae*

These are some works I did after the learning~

The original sketches weren't done by me, though. This one is by Stefani.

And this one is by my little sister.

These are just chibis, they're easy to draw and color since they don't have many details. Good for practicing~

My sister has a bunch of chibi sketches on her drawing book. I plan to color them all, lol XD

Practice, practice! Go, me!

Fate/stay night Beaten

2010-05-06T05:28:00.000-07:00

Got Saber's True Ending. I see that the anime followed this path, with some addition from the other paths as well.

I liked the story better in the visual novel. The anime... I don't know, seems to lack a lot of feelings to it. Although the battle surely is cooler, lol.

I missed a CG in Fate. And also Tiger Dojo 13. Will go around to look for it later. Now to Unlimited Blade Works!

Free For Three Months Straight!

2010-04-19T02:27:00.000-07:00

This is the best period in high school ever! Finally I can say bye-bye to those text books, long school hours, uniforms, and stressful natural science subjects~~~!

I AM HAPPY! XD

And now the agenda for these joyful three months :
1. Prepare things and self for university!
The next life can be even more murderous than the current one! And that I'll be living in the capital city, better to get used to heat and heavy traffics.

2. Get driving license!
You never know when dads get serious. @_@

3. Beat those home console games!
'Cause I can't bring them with me :S

4. Adding friends' and relatives' contacts to cell phone!
'course me needs.

5. Lose weight!
Less weights = More loves.

6. Organize things on laptop!
Files are scattering everywhere.... Most of them are still inside the Downloads folder :<

7. Start collecting useful books!
Let's hit the bookstore!

8. Get as many games on portable handheld!
Hohohohohooo~

9. Work on art and design project!
._.

10. Collect musics!
Can't rely on YouTube forever...

Maybe that's all for now.

r u a chocobo???

2010-04-12T08:01:00.001-07:00

Nope, a girl. I didn't know chocobos can type.

Ask me anything

He..? Serious lo?? C'mon.. Ya ya ya.. How bout tomorrow?? OooKayy..?? in KJ, Okayy??

2010-04-12T08:00:00.001-07:00

Ask me anything

why you don't want put your pic???

2010-04-03T07:38:00.001-07:00

Because I hate seeing my face in pictures.

Ask me anything

Pokes or Kiss?

2010-03-17T06:45:00.003-07:00

I prefer the latter *kisses whoever asked this question*

Ask me anything

What if there is no lovelies...?

2010-03-17T06:45:00.001-07:00

The world will be sad. At least, I will :<

Ask me anything

kamu keliatan kurus

2010-03-11T02:51:00.003-08:00

Masa' sih?! :o

Ask me anything

How're you these days?

2010-03-11T02:51:00.001-08:00

Busy preparing for National exams, sis. I have passed the entrance test, so I'm gonna be busy taking care of few things till next week.

Ask me anything

What do you think of smiling faces in public.....?

2010-03-08T19:07:00.001-08:00

The first thing that came into my mind was some people who work in marketing dpt. :S

(lol, I know it's silly)

Ask me anything

Berandai-andai

2010-02-28T09:44:00.001-08:00

Andai saja dia dekat.

Bisa nganterin ke mana-mana, jemput dari mana-mana, diajak konsultasi uni bakal bisa lebih nyambung, bisa daftar uni ke sana ke mari bareng-bareng, bisa nangis langsung di depan dia, dll, dll, dll...

;_;

The Wall

2010-02-27T07:11:00.000-08:00

Dear Wisdom that appears along the first light,

I wonder if it's still standing there, on the exact same place we built it together that one time...

I don't recall how we built it, though. Did we build it together, helping each other? Or did we build it in silence, with our backs facing each other?

Nevertheless, I wonder about its condition now.

Is it still there?

Is it still the same as ever?

Are you there?

If you are, are you inside it?

Or wandering around it?

Or have you left it?

Hidup yang Biasa-Biasa Saja

2010-02-23T07:23:00.000-08:00

............... lol.

Mustahil, mustahil. Hidup orang emang berbeda-beda. Tapi bagi tiap orang pasti hidup merekalah yang paling aneh, yang paling gak biasa.

Saya pun begitu, gak beda dari mereka semua.

Let's see... Saya masih 18 tahun, kurang malah. Lol, rasanya baru kemaren saya menginjak usia 13 tahun dan ngerasain yang namanya cinta, lol. Rasannya baru kemaren saya lulus SMP, sekarang gak kerasa dalam hitungan minggu saya akan berjuang supaya bisa lulus SMA.

Yang saya maksud dengan berjuang adalah benar-benar berjuang. UN SMP dulu saya gak sampe mesti berjuang. Waktu itu saya dapat mengingat dengan sangat cepat, dan melupakan dalam jangka waktu yang cukup lama. Namun saya gak punya tujuan yang riil waktu itu. Masuk SMAN 1 Tarogong Kidul saja saya udah puas setengah mati.

... Waktu itu saya gak sadar kalau dunia saya itu kecil, terlalu kecil. Klo ngeliat ke belakang sekarang saya jadi pengen ngetawain kenaifan saya waktu.

Ya Tuhan... Betapa saya dulu merasa saya sudah mengetahui semua yang seharusnya saya ketahui. Wahahahahahhah! Bahkan dua tahun yang lalu saya pun hanyalah anak kecil yang irasional.

Liat lagi ke belakang. Saya kurang apa sih? Keluarga saya lengkap. Kami punya kehidupan yang lebih dari sekedar layak. Tapi dasar saya waktu itu hanya mikirin kebahagiaan diri sendiri, materi yang melimpah itu ternyata gak cukup untuk memuaskan diri saya yang rakus ini.

Dulu saya adalah seorang anak kecil yang sok tahu.
Dulu saya adalah seorang anak kecil yang mementingkan diri sendiri.
Dulu saya adalah seorang anak kecil yang meletakkan dirinya di atas orang-orang lain.

Dan dulu saya adalah seorang anak kecil yang tidak menyadari itu semua.

Changing Layout

2010-02-21T10:52:00.000-08:00

Because I grew tired of the customized ones :/

Anxiety

2010-02-15T08:53:00.000-08:00

I've had this uncomfortable feeling since Saturday night... I can't sit still and I feel like another person. I felt like I had to do something or some unpleasant things might happen...

... Ah dammit, and I just had a bad experience today.

... At least I learned two particular things,

"Do anything, ANYTHING, to prevent yourself from getting into trouble"

And if it's too late to do anything,

"Never trust anyone when you got into a trouble"

Wanted to talk to P, but I guess I have to deal with this alone <_<

....

Damn, I feel like crying......

formspring.me

2010-02-13T07:10:00.001-08:00

What did you say if I say 'I love you neesama~<33'?

I'd say "I love you too,　いもうとちゃん～”

Ask me anything

It's so lonely...

2010-02-09T07:59:00.000-08:00

Went back home and found no one to hug my tired body ;_;

Traitor

2010-01-20T03:39:00.000-08:00

Please suicide.

It's time to let go... for real.

2010-01-08T19:10:00.000-08:00

I've been such a naive. There is just no way I can have all the happiness in the world. Hoping itself is a torture. Day by day goes with pain for keeping these hopes. I can't move on like this...

Now this is the time to let go. Now or never.

Time will answer everything so there's nothing to be afraid of. I'll just walk away silently and let the memories linger in both of our hearts. Those times we spent together were truly one of the happiest moments in my life, I will never forget.

I wish you a good luck with your lives.

...But I still remember your wish. The wish that made me cried in the most joyous tears. I feel and wish for the same as well.

Please be happy.

I've found her again

2010-01-07T11:28:00.000-08:00

Perhaps I'm stupid. Or just plain crazy. I can't even determine my feelings toward her.

Once I said to myself that I hate her. I hate her with all passion I have in me. I even did all my best to get rid of her from everybody I care about. From the place we first met...

But even when I succeeded I still looking for her. Every once in a while I would type her name, e-mail address, instant messanger ids on Google trying to find her trace. If I hate her that much, should I be happy that she has gone from sight? Then why do I keep doing that?

A luck, perhaps a destiny, I found her again. Just as I thought, she wouldn't be able to get off the internet.

...I hated her. But perhaps it was nothing more than a result of burning wrath. Perhaps I was too disappointed of being lied to. Perhaps I was mad because she didn't come to me and tell the truth.

...I do not lie. I'd never tell a single lie. Even to her. I didn't lie when I told her I loved her. I cared so much for her and she's a precious sister to me.

I loved her perhaps I still do. And that's why I'm missing her now.

Mashi

2009-12-18T06:06:00.000-08:00

He's the best boyfriend ever. ^_^

E...he... I could have said thousands of words about him and how I feel about him. But these are the best to express them :

I.
LOVE.
HIM.

After thinking that I might not see him for some days I had quite a nice time of nostalgia. We've known each other for around...nyem nyem nyem... half a year? He was falling for a fake person back then. Man, I still think that he was pretty stupid, but hey! He really is stupid! LAWL~~~

Well, anyway, I'm glad I had that problem with the chatroom that day. I wouldn't have talked to him if I hadn't~

I started to get the feeling that we would get along pretty fine after talking for a while with him. And I was right. Just a couple of months I already discover so much about him. I didn't even believe when he said that he was quiet in real life, LAWL~

Perhaps I have to thank him for this. Thank him for opening up to me. And thank him for accompanying me all this time. He's always been there for me every time I need him, and always be so understanding.

Mashi is perfect. As a lover. And as a pet. ^_^

There will be a continuation of this~

A free day after a long exam period~

2009-12-18T04:21:00.000-08:00

Let's see... I woke up at around 6am, but then realized that it's holiday today (Islamic New Year) so I went back to sleep. Woke up again at 7am, went to the bathroom for some quick shower and went downstairs for breakfast. But there was nothing on the table so I made a sunny-side-up for myself.

Then I turned on my Wii and go for a couple of days in Animal Parade. I cooked the wrong food in there so I got pissed off and stop playing. :>>:

I went back to my room and surf the interweb~

Around noon I got tired and went to take a nap. Woken up by the bell rang by a friend and his girlfriend. He wanted the book about programming that I borrowed from my teacher earlier so I gave it to him.

After that I went for some grinding in ES. The SIXAXIS's battery was low so I stopped playing after an hour. My brother is at home and he kidnapped my PSP so here I am, back to surfing the interweb~

So....bleh

2009-11-27T09:02:00.000-08:00

A day off. At first I thought, "Kewl, I finally have some time for myself,".

But meh, it turned to be not as much fun as I thought it would be. Sure, I spent all day playing games, not touching the books at all. Fun. Yeah, while it lasts, at least.

It's been only a couple of minutes after the date changed. Now I've begun to worry. About my future. About where I'm gonna take this (lol miserable) life to.

I began to think why I'm so Lazy. I know it's because of my lack of motivation to do anything.
So I began to think why I lack of motivation to do anything.
Yeah, why do I lack motivation to do anything?

Simple, it's because nothing I have ever done is good enough.

There's always other people who do things way much better. And compared to them, me and all of my works are just a complete trashes. And no one needs trash, so no one needs me or any of my works.

Looking back, all I have ever done were just for the sake of pleasing other people. With nobody even looking at me now, I start to become Lazier and Lazier. Yeah, that makes sense. Hurray! I've found the answer to my Laziness!

Now, now, people...

Please don't tell me what to do. Because I already know what I must do.

Bet you all will say : "Don't be Lazy!", "You have to try harder!", "There are still people who appreciate you!", "Don't give up!", "Keep trying!", "Manage your time!", "Follow your heart", etc.

LOL, like I wasn't smart enough to know what to do. I mean, I know I'm not as smart as, say... Imoi, Tya, Gita, Aldi, Iva, Dina, etc., but certainly I'm not THAT stupid.

I know WHAT I have to do, thank you very much.

But what I still don't know and need to know is,

HOW to do them.

So yeah, people. Stop telling me what to do or what I must achieve. Teach me HOW to do them, ok?

Oh yeah, I think this applies to some demanding teachers out there too, no? I'm sick of all the monotone lectures and commands.

Lot of Works in Such A Limited Time...

2009-11-24T04:24:00.000-08:00

I'm getting sick of all of these school stuffs. TOEFL is just around the corner, I haven't gotten around to practice for it. A week after TOEFL there will be JLPT, which I'm very pessimistic about...

And the final paperwork (karya tulis). Why do I must do such a stupid thing...? I only managed to write the first chapter today and I already feel so Lazy to continue it...

Urgh... I have some tests tomorrow as well. Some biology and possibly math...

I HAET.

A single post of updates~

2009-10-25T03:30:00.000-07:00

Ah... been a while since the last time I wrote in here. Missed you so much, dear bloggy~

Been so busy with life recently. Lot happens but hey! That was what exactly kidnapped me from this place and it's certainly not a whole bad thing.

So I've got a Wii (and a broken laptop in exchange...) and the PS3 is still sitting elegantly behind the glass in the gaming room. Another good news, my beloved father has bought me a new laptop and a PSP (or so he said on the phone)! Being a good girl does pay up in the end~ XD

On the other hand though, my backlog is bound to grow larger and larger from now on... Why this has to happen during my important last year in high school is a total mystery. Not only I have to do more studying and less gaming, but I also have to move out next year. Bringing those systems (and the games!!) with me is gonna me a major pain...

Well, that's school for you. Never a single fun I get from it.

I'm not going to rant about school since it's just going to ruin this post. So I'll be moving on to the next great news.

AT3 has been confirmed!!!!

January 28th, next year. Planning to get the Japanese version. But seeing the price tag makes me cry.... I've never imported a Japanese game before, obviously because it's more expensive than the US versions... Oh my, hopefully I can save enough money before every available copies got snatched.

PLI is currently experiencing problem

2009-09-30T10:57:00.000-07:00

Apparently someone (perhaps one of the admins) hides the forum.

I wonder what happened?

Old days, Old ARM...

2009-08-23T16:50:00.000-07:00

Visited the old ARM just now. I realized that even though I was the very first member there, I missed a lot. Lot of things.

What's bugging me is that those things aren't just memories of the past. They're also could be the very reasons of the occurrences lately...

I'd love to copy everything into my brain, so I can analyze a little bit of things and make some hypothesis. Maybe I can figure something out and even make a way to a solution....

But seeing everything hurts me. Deeply.

I was a nobody.
I didn't know anything.
I wasn't even remembered.

I know very well it's because of my own absence.......

But still...

...I bet that person was just lying as well...

That person didn't even remember about my existence...

That person was happy.

Without me.

And was too happy to even remember some random girl with username 'AD'.

Lies...

New theme!

2009-08-19T10:00:00.000-07:00

YAY white!

To get a Wii or not...

2009-08-19T01:57:00.000-07:00

Been thinking of getting myself a Wii, since there's so little games I want to play on my PS3. Not to mention how my brother takes over of the gaming room every time he's at home. And how my sister also takes over the TV to watch anime every afternoon and evening.... I rarely touch PS3....

While Wii has many games I want to play~ Trauma Center, Harvest Moon, Rune Factory Frontier, Fatal Frame 4, etc. Also, easier access to obtain them :3 And I'd love to try the Wiimote too~

Downside : If I do get a Wii, my brother will take the PS3 with him...

Revived

2009-08-12T10:13:00.000-07:00

I know, LOL. And I am sorry for that~

Anyways, this will be a fun place, no more gloomy posts, hopefully~ Gonna change the theme within this week :3

Reflecting

2009-07-02T05:19:00.000-07:00

Been 6 days since the first day of the semester break. So far I'm enjoying my Lazy days~

Things happened. Many things.

Often I find myself lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. Thinking about past events.

I have changed. Better or worse, no idea.

I looked to my semester results and realized how average I am. Then I remember how I couldn't master what I was supposed to master. Chemistry, physics, biology, blahblahblah... I began to worry about the National Exam I'm going to take part in next school year. If I don't start catching up soon, I'm gonna fail for sure. But there's also a solution, since I wish to take International relation major after high school, I can move to social major. Memorizing is my field.

But then again, parents won't let that. Besides, the university of my dream is a very special. It's really hard to get in there.

...Oh God...

I think I'm gonna stick with the current class. Too much work and problems to change major now anyway.

And....
Another problem. It's hard to say. Ouch, in fact it can be said that I'm on the lucky position. But then... I feel like I'm the one who suffers the most....

Oh well~ Nothing I could do about it~
Don't worry just be happy for now~
I still got 11 days before I'm officially a senior~

Note to self

2009-06-26T12:04:00.000-07:00

Stop thinking about myself.

Try to have fun this semester break.

Sleep normally. Stop waking up in middle of the night.

Do better next semester.

Aim for the best university in the country.

Save money for I-know-what.

Continue the PROJECT.

Get the DS back from sister.

Get Jakuri Ending + 100 % in AT2.

Great Fear

2009-06-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

Can't rest.

Can't even concentrate.

Hurt and Tired

2009-06-15T00:42:00.000-07:00

...

Sudah berapa lama? Tiga bulan saja belum penuh.

Pertama cuma rasa simpati dan kasihan. Awalnya juga dia yang mengajak ngobrol duluan. Ternyata dia memang sekompleks yang dia bilang, mungkin lebih. Belum pernah aku temukan orang model dia begitu.

Orang yang begitu kaya akan perasaan.
Orang yang begitu peka atas perasaannya.
Orang yang begitu kaya, namun sekaligus miskin pelajaran tentang hidup ini.
Orang yang begitu menomorduakan logika.
Orang yang begitu rapuh, baik di dalam maupun di luar.

Dia begitu kaya dan sangat peka akan perasaan, aku takjub dengan fakta ini. Sebelumnya tak pernah terlintas di pikiranku akan ada seseorang yang begitu sensitif di usianya yang sudah dapat dikatakan dewasa.

Demi dia aku berkorban banyak hal. Aku biarkan sebagian besar waktuku tercurahkan untuknya. Aku tinggalkan sebagian hidupku untuk bersama dengannya.

Tapi tak pernah akan aku sesali semua itu. Jikalau memang ada sebuah masa depan untuk kita, mengapa tidak aku perjuangkan?

Seperti apapun aku terluka,
seperti apapun aku merasa lelah dan merana,
karena dialah orang yang terpenting bagiku,
aku tidak akan pernah berhenti dan menyerah.

Madness!

2009-06-14T12:26:00.000-07:00

OMG, LOL~!

This is what happens if I go pull some all-nighter, doing some homework, and end up failing miserably :

I admit it. I have no talent in art, and this "beautiful" piece on an old T-shirt is the proof.

Oh God...

At least teacher would have a good laugh the moment he sees this...

Shadow Romance part 2

2009-06-14T08:11:00.000-07:00

The nameless lake deep inside the forest is the man's most favorite place. First impression about this lake is its mysterious calm aura...

Most people who comes the forest must at least seen this lake once on their first visit. Yet not many sees this lake again after their first. Some even cannot find it again no matter how hard they try.

As if it's been selecting the people it likes. By seeing them first, and then decides who can come back, and who cannot.

The man is still standing there. Admiring the beauty of the lake.

Shadow Romance

2009-06-14T06:48:00.000-07:00

He walks through the usual forest.

Every day is boring...

He sighs to himself. Murmuring about his meaningless life and desire for some dramatic changes. He keeps walking until he reached a side of a lake.

This is the lake he sees everyday. Its surface reflects the sun rays, the image of the upside down trees is glowing. A soft breeze makes small waves to its water.

The peaceful scene never ceases to amaze him. He makes another sigh.

Such a beauty...

Happy Birthday, Icha~

2009-06-08T06:14:00.000-07:00

Sweet seventeen!!!!!

Sayang pas waktu UAS ya...

Sorry gak dateng ke rumah, ngasih kado, beli kue, dan lain-lain.

Many things happened to me, you see...

I'll make it up for you, I promise~

Umm...

Moga panjang umur.
Moga sehat selalu.
Moga lancar study.
Moga lancar bisnis.
Moga lacar hubungan cinta~
Moga tetap berada di jalan-Nya.

I hope for the bests for you.
I love you, always, forever.

Random Epicness : Sketchy, sketchy~

2009-06-07T05:11:00.000-07:00

An epic sketch made by a totally stressed girl. (06/06/2009)

A doodle by a bored girl in a boring class with a boring teacher who was lecturing about a boring subject. (25/05/2009)

Fufufufu~ :3

Fufufu~

Fufu.

Fu...

...

Okay, okay! I'm going to study for real now!

Oooh~ The baby's here~!

2009-06-04T22:03:00.000-07:00

So I just had loosen the ropes around that big red box today~! Carefully opened the box and let her free from that prison~ My, my~
So she is the one I'm going to play Atelier Rorona with~
She does look shiny and beautiful in person~

YAYNESS!

I don't care of whatever reason for my father suddenly decided to buy her for me (and my brother and sister) anymore!

Two problems though. Have no games yet.
My father made an epic mistake.

And I still don't know the reason why is the TV not showing anything but blue screen...

I am so speechless.

Slowly and softly

2009-06-01T09:57:00.000-07:00

Such a method to kill me effectively~ Amazing

Let's pray...

Let me enter the Heaven

I think I've suffered enough in this world Good Lord

Those fake happiness have finally become transparent

Or is it just me?

Have You closed both of my eyes and heart?

He said I have lost trust on everybody

Is that true?

But then again

Instead of being healed little by little from time to time

which takes so long

I would prefer to release them all

memories

_______________________________________________
Feeling so down again...
I'm sorry...

OMG! LOLWUT~!?

2009-05-31T04:43:00.000-07:00

My team is the winner!!

ZOMG, ya Tuhan, ya Gusti~!!!!

Gotta prepare the biggest, prettiest, sweetest, and cutest smile for tomorrow~! Hope it won't rain so we can do the ceremony~

And even though it was just a regional competition, I'm still proud! XD

Thank you Arvy and Uphie! Couldn't achieve this without you guys!

Eeek...!

2009-05-30T15:16:00.000-07:00

I'm supposed to be at school in two hours. But blah... This day has finally come, though I always wanted to avoid it.

Me debates? Why would the teacher have any ideas of it?

Not so willing to do it, but have to be a good student, no?

We'll leave it to the second team if we don't do well. >_>

I just hope I'd get a car accident on the way or something so I don't have to go through it...

Bunga Terakhir

2009-05-30T02:08:00.000-07:00

Bunga Terakhir
The Last Flower
- Romeo -

Kaulah yang pertama menjadi cinta
You were the first to become love
Tinggallah kenangan
All left is just memories
Berakhir lewat bunga
Ended through a flower
Seluruh cintaku untuknya
All of my love for him/her

Bunga terakhir kupersembahkan kepada yang terindah
The last flower I present to the most beautiful
Sebagai satu tanda cinta untuknya
As one of proves of loves for him/her
Bunga terakhir menjadi satu kenangan yang tersimpan
The last flower becomes a memory to be saved

Tak 'kan pernah hilang 'tuk selamanya
Will never vanish

Betapa cinta ini sungguh berarti
How this love is so meaningful
Tetaplah terjaga
Remain saved
Selamat tinggal kasih
Goodbye love
'Ku telah pergi selamanya

_______________________________________________
Didn't translate the last line...
Obviously, because it's too painful...

A note/post dedicated for my best friend, Icha~

2009-05-29T03:11:00.000-07:00

Feels like a long time ago. When we first met. Er.. Let's see... 3rd grade? When we were just 10~?
I had just moved from the capital. Must admit, you weren't my first friend that time! XD

How many fights have we had?
How often have we cried for each other?

Together with our other best friend, TuA, we've overcome so much negative feelings, including hatred itself.

Hahaha! Junior high was the darkest time, no~? We didn't talk or even say hi to each other for at least three months in 8th grade, just because a now-stupid-and-laughable reason~! Remember?

Been two years after that...
Now we go to different school. We live in a different environments. Lots happen to us when we're not together.

But we amazingly managed to keep in touch.
We are still able to understand each other, or even better now.

You have been staying here with me.
Comforting me.
Clearing my mind from worries.
Making me laugh with you.
Convincing me to eat meals again.
Watching horror movies,
and screaming at scary scenes with me.

You've made me very happy, just by staying here.
Seeing your smiles.
Laughing at your jokes
Listening to your stories.

Basically, enjoying your presence.

Thank you for all what you have done for me. I wish for your true happiness.
I promise to be a person worthy of being your best friend.

Hahahaha! I wish TuA would be able to join us in the last two days~! So much we need to talk about~

Aaaaaaaaaaand~~~

Your boyfriend is PWNED!
I made a note/post about you first!
Wahahahahahahahaha!!!!

(^^)v

Goodbye

2009-05-26T10:46:00.000-07:00

Goodbye
Air Supply

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much so more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye

___________________________________________
Nothing I can do but to receive it, huh?
I'll live with it. Just a part of my love life.
There's still much more bright side I have yet to see, now that I've seen the dark side~

___________________________________________
RANDOMNESS:
Two weeks were taken from me!
Physic test, and the only thing I remember is this song lyrics!
*is doomed for sure today...*

What I fear the most might be true after all...

2009-05-25T10:30:00.000-07:00

His account has been disabled or discontinued or blablabla...

The most important thing is, he cut his only connection to me.

After he said he wants us to break up.

I can't believe it.

Is it true...?

Then what can I do to proof it?

Why leave me like this?

What sin have I committed to deserve a punishment like this?

Have I ever done anything to him?

Have I ever done anything to anybody?

Or is it because I haven't done anything I supposed to do?

I want to sing~

2009-05-24T06:41:00.000-07:00

Hohohohohohohoho~!

Listening to Mashi-kun's singings makes me want to sing too!

But err...

-DAVIN can't record any sounds for some reason
-My voice is horrible...

Maybe I have to wait until he comes home. Till then, time for choosing a song and practicing~

EDIT : Forget it, I'm not going to sing anything any time soon

I ruined my own morning...

2009-05-23T17:46:00.000-07:00

Such a morning to start another miserable day...

I finished downloading all the 22 parts of AyoDance client an hour ago and began to install it soon after that. Excited, yes. The installation was a success and there was a VERY big smile on my face, I even giggled a little while happily clicking the new big folder of "AyoDance".

The game crashed in seconds. Every time I tried to start it.

I was like O_o? But I remained calm and click a file named "Uninstall", hoping for it to be playable after I re-installed it. And that was a big mistake. I forgot that I put all the 22 parts on the same folder as the game.

...

There goes the total of 12 hours downloading... I have to start again from the beginning...

Wah, a toad was laughing at me (again)...

Me, DAVIN, and Cappuccino...

2009-05-23T03:07:00.000-07:00

Peaceful evening.

After nights of tear sheds and endless loops of Bunga Terakhir, I'm finally able to get downstairs and make some drinks for myself.

Rainy evening, grazing buffaloes, the handsome and loyal DAVIN, smooth internet connection, and warm cappuccino~ For some time I managed to forget my problem.

Best evening of the week.

Even if it's just temporary...

Even a toad was laughing at me...

2009-05-21T22:10:00.000-07:00

I really don't know what to do...

Nor what I want to do...

Day to day I become more and more isolated even from myself...

This morning was terrible ; stomachache + headache + heartache + hard to breath = feel like committing suicide...

I know I must not give up...

But the life itself...

It's hard to see anything ahead...

More time?
Yes, I believe. What I need is just the truth.

The God will never abandon me.

But this is killing me, ya Rabb...

Not in mood of doing anything...

2009-05-21T06:08:00.000-07:00

Even though it's holiday now... Usually this kind of day is which I always waiting for, especially in a middle of weekdays...

So I didn't do anything today.

Woke up at 9.18 AM. Suddenly the song of Bunga Terakhir (The Last Flower) was ringing in my head, so I spent time looking for a video clip of it... Didn't find what I was looking for, but an awesome piano version of (half of) it. Been listening for the rest of the day, even now while writing this post.

Bunga terakhir...

The last flower...

I'm amazed at how the tune really describes what I'm feeling right now...

Please eat me...

2009-05-19T06:43:00.000-07:00

Just eat me...

This is killing me.

My heart aches every time it beats.

Regrets...

Do or do not?

Ah headache!

I'm sorry...

Please eat me.

Regrets, regrets...

2009-05-17T20:28:00.000-07:00

Regrets only come at the end... When we realize that it's too late to turn back...

Can't take back what we had said.

Can't undo what we had done.

Sad, isn't it?

School Trip! : Review

2009-05-08T22:54:00.000-07:00

Finally home~ Arrived at school ground around 3 AM, wah!

Okay... I'm gonna try to do a review, or more like a report~

-First Day-

School
4.00 AM : Gather at school with the others. We got the first bus! Yay~!
5.30 AM : Begin the journey~

On the way
5.30 AM - Noon : Sleeping, random things with classmates~

Ice cream and milk factory, Indolacto
Noon - 2.30 PM : So these yummy things come from huge weird-looking machines...

Yakult Factory
2.30 PM - I forgot : More weird-looking machines and yummy drinks come from it...

On the way to dorm
I forgot - I forgot : More random things with classmates, sleeping, snacking

Dorm
I forgot - Sleep : Bath, dinner, more random things

-Second Day-
2.00 AM : Wake up to noises
2.15 AM : Bath, surprisingly it wasn't cold at all~!
2.30 AM - around 5 AM : Random things
Around 5 AM : Breakfast, packing
5.30 AM - 8.20 AM : To UI (University of Indonesia)
8.20 AM - 9.00 AM : Tour around UI. Huge and green campus~ I saw my senpai whom I had a crush on long time ago~
9.00 AM - ? : Learning more about UI, now I kinda want to go study there...
? - 1.30 PM : To Dufan Amusement Park
1.30 PM - 8 PM : BEST THING ABOUT THE TRIP! Playing time with classmates~~ Souvenirs~
8 PM : Dinner~

To conclude my report, I have to say that the trip was so-so on the first day. But the second day was SUPER!
Too bad we spent time mostly on the bus... I couldn't take many pictures...

School Trip! : List of things I have to bring

2009-05-05T06:51:00.000-07:00

With school trip is just the day after tomorrow, I can't help but getting excited!

So, this is the list~ :

-Shirts (3)
-Trousers (2)
-PJs (1)
-Uniform (1 set + shoes)
-Iron (1)
-Bath utensils (1 set)
-Digicam~ (+ charger) <-----can't lose this one too!
-Cellphone (+ charger)
-NDS (+ charger)
-Electric terminal (1)
-Wallet (1)
-Budak Teuneung novel (1)
-Journal book (1)
-Snacks (TONS OF THEM~)

Fufufufu~ Fun school trip~

(If only it wasn't going to be very strict...)

First attempt at translating song

2009-05-02T05:39:00.000-07:00

Aww~ This is my favorite song. From a local band, Kerispatih. I dedicate this song for the people whom I love the most out there.

Like the title said, this is my first attempt at translating a song. Can you please tell me whether the translation makes any sense or not?

Kerispatih - Lagu Rindu -
Kerispatih - Song of Longing -

Cipt. Badai

Bintang malam katakan padanya

Star in the night tell him
Aku ingin melukis sinarmu di hatinya

I want to paint your light on his heart
Embun pagi sampaikan padanya

Fog of the morning send (this) to him
Biar ku dekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya

Let me embrace him when the cold shackle him

Reff:
Tahukah engkau wahai langit

Do you know, oh the sky
Aku ingin bertemu membelai wajahnya

I wish to see (and) touch his face
Kan ku pasang hiasan angkasa yang terindah

I will set the most beautiful illustration of the sky
Hanya untuk dirinya

Just for his sake

Lagu rindu ini kuciptakan

This song of longing I created
Hanya untuk bidadari hatiku tercinta

Only for my most beloved angel of this heart
Walau hanya nada sederhana

Even if it is just a simple tune
Ijinkan ku ungkap segenap rasa dan kerinduan

Let me express this whole feelings and longing

Credits : http://kumpulan-lirik-lagu-indonesia.blogspot.com/

02:30. You'll be Going.

2009-04-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

I've been tested since this week had started.

A very important person had left the forums.
There are things better to be left unsaid...

Chemistry test. FAIL for sure.

Physics test. FAIL for sure.

Informatics Olympiad. Beaten by my own juniors. Hurts.

Today I went home hoping to find some relax time, I got IM from Rez. Telling me to check his topic.

Ultimate depression.

Lost myself immediately.

Sorry Fay, I made you worry...

Sorry MoPo-chan, you had to switch with Rez because of my ego...

Sorry to all my friends, I couldn't talk to your guys... I'll make up for it tomorrow, okay?

I'm alright now.

Rez, I wish I could see you off... I'm sorry for being so frail that I couldn't make it to the capital by myself... I wish I could be there hugging you, wishing you the best of lucks, and ensuring that my feelings will stay the same no matter how long the distance between us...

I thank you for willing to listen to me. Never forget what I keep telling you. No one can tell the future. We shall fight for it.

I will pray for you everyday, every night, every second. Take care of yourself.

I'll be spamming your e-mail address everyday.

And we will see each other. In the future.

Oh yeah, I'm gonna wear double watches from now on~ One for my time, one for yours~
So I can guess what are you doing everytime~

Today is... WHAT!?

2009-04-24T22:46:00.000-07:00

I spent last night entirely to do my math homework. The teacher sure loves to give her students a tons of it every chapter we passed...

By the time I had finished, it's 4 AM already. And I caught a cold. Great.

The cold got worsened, so I called in sick today and sent the math homework to the school in order to meet the deadline. I then spent the rest of the morning getting some sleep.

Two hours ago I woke up. My classmates sent messages to me asking why I don't go to school today. They also told me that the teachers for the last 4 periods won't be coming at all.

WHAT!?

That's half of the day!!

If I had known about that, I would go to school today ignoring my minor cold and the stupid headache! Then I would be able to use the classroom's whiteboard for my original plan!

Great. Just great.

Now I have to use my Plan B instead...

Things really can happen unpredicted, huh?

I just don't know what to feel about today...

Two Big News in One Day

2009-04-14T03:44:00.000-07:00

Good and bad.

I'll go for the first news I heard :

I passed the school selection to participate in the Regional Olympiad in Informatics tomorrow. Of five selected students, I got the first position.

And the bad news heard soon when I got home after the extra programming lessons :

MoPo-chan has been hospitalized since this morning. Her stresses affect her body... Her liver got damaged...

I know exactly how that feels. Every time I fail in something, be it lost in a competition or did terribly in tests or got into a fight with someone, my body reacts to my mind. I can't accept the truth. I can't face anyone. I can't face anything at all. After the bad event, I would always fall sick for the next few days, usually a week or two...

So... what I want to point out is... Maybe MoPo-chan's situation is just like what usually happens to me.

And I can only pray for her to get better as soon as possible.

My Wish(es) to the Full Moon I Saw Last Night

2009-04-12T02:40:00.000-07:00

-I wish for everybody in the world's happiness.

-I wish for my parents' health.

-I wish for my brother's safety.

-I wish for my sister's good behavior.

-I wish for a sweet dream.

-I wish for a good life.

-I wish for a bright future.

-I wish to be forgiven of all the sins I made up'till now.

-I wish I can do my best from now on.

-I wish I can record my singing soon so I can show it MoPo-chan to make her happy.

-I wish my laptop can get its speaker repaired soon.

-I wish my brother return his debt to me.

-I wish I can play PS2 on weekdays.

-I wish I can play my PS2 on the LCD TV my parents bought two weeks ago.

-I wish I have larger room so the old TV and my PS2 can fit.

-I wish I could get PS3 because I'm dying to play Atelier Rorona now!

-I wish I can stop wishing for materialistic things.

So far... only the last wish has been granted~

I Came Back To Life!!!

2009-03-28T07:26:00.000-07:00

Oh..oh... I just... don't know what to write...

After a month I just thought to myself that I should do something to my blog. When I came I was surprised to find there's some people came and even left comments both in my post and the chat box!

I... was really shocked... Because I never thought anyone would still remember about me and this place. After all the time I had gone and... I also never said anything to you guys...

Some things went out of my hands and they took me a lot time to take care of. My laptop and computer died (those are dark days...), I got into a fight with my buddies, the guy I'm in love with rejected me... To get over them I participated in many competitions, then school got neglected and my grades went down over the hills... My life was such a mess...

But I'm okay now, I made up with my buddies, laptop and computer both are running smoothly, it has gotten a lot better~

Few days ago I lurked around the forum and felt happy to find there's so many new people and all of you seemed get along just fine :)

I know things happened but you overcame them eventually! I was so relieved!

LOK and Lazy-kun thank you for checking on me! I'll try to come and post in the forum more often~ Please say hello to everybody for me~

To Orica, sorry! Aku pernah ke blog kamu kok, ntar deh di-add yah~ Thanks!

Nice to meet you Aono-san and Mell-san, I'm very sorry for the late reply... I haven't finished The Answer yet... Jumped right to Persona 4 and enjoy playing it now :D
I did challenge Nyx for 4 times, and barely won it with only Mitsuru and the MC alive through the last moments! Too bad I couldn't maxed all social links, but I wasn't planning to make Orpheus Telos either... I sucks at fusing personas anyway....

Thanks for coming you two~ I'll visit your blogs too~

Gak bisa dipercaya!!!!

2009-02-02T04:25:00.000-08:00

!!!!

Hiks... hiks....
Dosa apa gw ama Tuhan....?
Udah nungguin selama 1,5 taun juga....

Gila....
Game terkeren yg paling ditunggu-tunggu...
Mak....mak....
Dasar nasib....

Mudah-mudahan aja tokonya ng-stock lg secepatnya....
Gw pengen banget itu game....
Doakanlah aku, kawan-kawan...

Hiks...

Persona 3 FES : The Journey TAMAT!!!!

2009-01-26T03:31:00.000-08:00

YAY~!!!!!!

Setelah perjuangan selama 96 jam 49 menit, akhirnya aku bersama dengan teman-teman seperjuangan berhasil menumbangkan si Nyx Avatar! *cheers*

Sungguh ending yang sangat menyentuh hati...

-SPOILER!-

Siapa yang nyangka klo akhirnya si MC (kita sendiri) harus mengorbankan dirinya sendiri hanya untuk menyegel si Nyx??!

Setelah the last battle yang gak nanggung-nanggung menghabiskan 2 jam! Padahal gw udah bersorak ria ma ade gw yang ga ngerti apa-apa! Padahal ampe 4 kali diulang itu battle!

Hiks...hiks.... kenapa di akhir, menuju last moments-nya si MC, dia cuma bersama Aigis doank? Kenapa temen-temen manusianya enggak berada di sisinya saat ia mulai memejamkan mata? Kenapa pada malah inget lagi pas akhir??!!!

Ternyata jawabannya simple... Itulah keinginan producer-nya...

Hiks... tapi cara yang sangat mengesankan untuk sebuah ending... Sungguh bikin terharu...

-END OF SPOILERS-

Yah, meskipun Social Links-nya kurang 2 lagi... Tapi tak apa...

Oh ya, ending theme song-nya keren abis!!

Now... moving on to The Answer...

2008 : Tahun Penuh Kejutan

2008-12-31T03:03:00.000-08:00

Klo sekarang ngeliat ke belakang, banyak kejadian di tahun 2008~

Di tahun itu, AD mecahin rekor sakit total 24 hari.

Di tahun itu, AD dua kali dikecewakan OSIS SMAN 1 Tarogong sehingga sekarang sampai hilang kepercayaan pada mereka.

Di tahun itu, AD mengenal Pascal.

Di tahun itu, AD ikut Olimpiade Komputer sampai tingkat provinsi.

Di tahun itu, AD nabung rekor ampe 1 juta lebih!

Di tahun itu, pertama kali AD beli kaset ori.

Di tahun itu, AD secara berangsur-angsur mendapatkan kembali kepercayan diri yang sempat hilang.

Di tahun itu, AD belajar bahwa Papa pun tidak sempurna.

Di tahun itu, AD belajar bahwa Mama adalah wanita yang kuat dan tegar.

Di tahun itu, AD belajar bahwa Mas Ares sudah dewasa.

Di tahun itu, AD belajar untuk menjadi kakak yang baik bagi Wawa.

Di tahun itu, AD akhirnya menyadari AD adalah orang yang beruntung.

Di tahun ini, AD akhirnya bisa melihat dunia dengan jernih.

Di tahun ini, AD bergabung dengan kepengurusan KIR.

Di tahun ini, ambisi AD mulai muncul ke permukaan.

Di tahun ini, rasa ingin tahu AD bertambah.

Di tahun ini, pertama kalinya AD bisa menghargai keberadaan orang lain.

Di tahun ini, banyak yang AD dapatkan.

Di tahun ini, AD berkembang banyak.

Di tahun ini, AD kembali menemukan cinta...

Dan sekarang...

Tahun 2009...

kejutan apa lagi yang akan kulalui...

I will (not) be gone for 3 days!

2008-10-30T08:07:00.000-07:00

Pesta Sains, here I come~
I'll make a lot improvement, and will work hard till the very end!
Dengan ini, AD berjanji, atas nama keinginan diri sendiri!
Sekalian mengejar prestasi, mengejar gebetan juga! XD
Ayooo ini kesempatan buat ngobrol untuk pertama kalinyaaaa!

This week had been crazy!!!

2008-10-26T08:58:00.000-07:00

Minggu paling gila sepanjang hidup!

Hari pertama, Senin, udah deg-degan karena ada rencana ulangan MTK. Karena AD gak mau gagal ulangan lagi, kali itu AD sudah berusaha belajar! Dan memang belajar, kok...! Tapi di saat-saat puncak ketegangan, tiba-tiba seorang teman sekelas masuk kelas dengan kasual dan dia bilang, "Gak jadi ulangan Matematika, Jum'aaaaaat,". GUBRAKS! Waaah, padahal AD udah tumben-tumbenan belajar malemnya... -_-"... Tapi seenggaknya ada waktu tambahan buat ngerjain PR Matematika.

Pas hari Rabu, this is the day when the excitement has begun... Pak Ram, pas lagi tengah-tengah pemantapan, (lagi-lagi) dengan kasualnya bilang, "Jadi, berempat ke IPB,". YAY!!! Lalu seharian itu Hana, Yudhis, Rovi, dan Kang Haki habiskan di labkom...

Hari Jum'at, ULANGAN! Rasanya pengaturan kursi oleh Bu Yani yang tadinya menegangkan, langsung menguap begitu menerima soal. LUMAYAN! AD bakal menghantamkan diri ke meja klo ulangan yang bab ini sampe harus diremidial!! Bahahahahahaha! Lalu ada juga Japan Club, menyanyi dengan Cicit! Hohohow! Dan hari ini ternyata hanyalah sebuah pre-klimaks...

Sabtu~ Ini justru penghujung minggu yang jadi klimaksnya. Hari ini rapat kepengurusan KIR. Rapat biasa kok, outdoor dengan member seadanya... Tapi!!! WOOHOOO~

AD disetujui jadi Sekretaris Umum KIR!!!

Oooh ohohoh... Oh my God... Ini bukan mimpi kan? Rekan-rekan pengurus KIR, jujur, AD sempet nervous lho. Karena mayoritas dari XI IPA 2, kirain bakal ada calon dari sana n pasti bakal dapet dukungan dari temen-temen sekelasnya... Tapi ternyata! Hahahahahaa! AD akan buktikan klo AD memang BISA!

Sepulang dari sekolah AD langsung pergi menemui Icha, traktir dia! Klo aja ada TuA di sana... Moment paling tepat untuk merasa senang dan menyenangkan orang! :D

Mmmm, yaaa... Hari Minggunya malah enggak terlalu berkesan. AD diem di rumah seperti biasa... Boring... Yang ada cuma PR n laptop... Yaah... Pokoknya AD harus planing hati-hati nih soalnya minggu depan Jum'atnya berangkat ke IPB, tapi juga ada rapat PL! Wakss! Repooooot... XD

AD can participate in Programming Competition 2008 too?!

2008-10-24T06:35:00.000-07:00

This is GREAT!

Bisa ikut ke IPB (Institut Pertanian Bogor) bareng Yudhis, Kang Haki, n Rovi! :D

Seperti mimpi... Akhirnya kita berempat bisa ngerasain Pesta Sains 2008 tanpa harus melewati penyeleksian yang menyiksakan! Dan enggak ada yang harus merasa ditinggal. Yay!

Ehm! Programming Competition sebenernya masih bagian dari Pesta Sains, sebuah event edukasional bergengsi taraf Nasional! :O Hmm... Pesta Sains ini ngundang seluruh siswa dari penjuru Indonesia untuk mengikuti beberapa event :

A. Lomba Jajak Pendapat Statistika
B. Lomba Cepat Tepat Biologi
C. Chemistry Challenge
D. Matematika Ria
E. Programming Competition
F. Kompetisi Fisika
G. Lomba Karya Ilmiah Populer

Bwekekekek... AD bisa ikut ini di tahun kedua SMA! Dan masih punya peluang buat ikut lagi taun depan, woohoooo!!

Pesta Sains ini bikin AD deg-degan juga, soalnya ini kan Nasional. Lagi, kelas XI kan minoritas dibanding yang kelas XII. Apalagi yang kelas XII kan ngincer masuk IPB tanpa tes-nya... So pasti mereka berusaha mati-matian... Nah! Dibandingkan dengan mereka, AD sangat nyantai. Bahkan sampai saat ini sekali pun! Dasar-dasar penyelesaian soal-soal Pascal aja masih samar-samar... Kayaknya klo keadaannya kayak begini terus mah, AD bisa-bisa malah enggak siap MENANG! Apalagi nanti Finalnya kan praktek... AD masih pemula sekali dalam hal itu...

Lalu yah, soal company juga rada-rada khawatir niih... AD cuma ceweknya sendirian dari kelas XI IPA 3! Hiieee ada sih ada cewek kelas XI-nya, tapi mereka dari kelas XI IPA 2. Otomatis donk mereka bakal ngumpulnya ama sesama lagi. Tapi tetap tidak boleh pesimis! Ayo AD, walopun sendirian kamu BISA! Jangan lupa nanti bawa M150, biar BISA! (Wekekekek)

Pokoknya, minna-san, AD minta doa supaya AD bisa mencapai dan meraih apa yang AD cita-citakan di Pesta Sains ini. Amin!

Art of Photography : Iseng-iseng doank!

2008-10-10T02:36:00.000-07:00

TADA! Mulai sekarang AD menambahkan gadget baru di samping! Emang sih isinya cuma gambar-gambar doank... Tapi ini adalah gambar hasil jepretan AD yang aneh!

Belakangan ini ngerasa ada yang aneh deh... Dan ternyata itu adalah, tangan AD berasa gatel pengen make kamera terus! Yup yup, mulai sekarang AD akan rajin jepret sana jepret sini. Hayhay!

(Ada kemungkinan AD akan menemukan bakat terpendam lagi! Hehehe :D)

Pulpen Bentuk Roti : So Cuuuute <3

2008-10-08T23:50:00.000-07:00

Hehehe!

Pulpen bentuk roti ini AD beli waktu jalan-jalan ke Bandung.

Lucu, ya?
Tapi harganya lumayan lho, Rp 10.500,00 perbiji!

Ludes deh Rp 21.000,00...

Bentuknya yang aneh bikin ane tertarik. Warnanya juga lumayan lho! Hampir kayak beneran!

Ujungnya itu tutupnya, tinggal dibuka dan jadilah pulpen.

Hmm, satu hal yang mengecewakan. Pulpen-pulpen ini, terutama yang croissant (yang melengkung), kurang nyaman dipake! Apalagi klo buat pas didikte...

Ar Tonelico 2! Cover dan bonus-bonus tersingkap sudah!

2008-09-27T05:23:00.000-07:00

Haiyaa... Ar Tonelico 2 bundle <3

Baru buka e-mail dari NISA nih! Ar Tonelico 2 : Melody of Metafalica akan dirilis Desember nanti. Setiap copy dilengkapi secara spesial dengan Art Collection dan Soundtrack. SETIAP copy!! Waw...

Tapi bagi mereka-mereka yang pre-order dari RosenQueen akan menerima bonus-bonus menarik lainnya! Diantaranya :

-31 lagu tambahan yang gak ada di OST sisipan

-Art Booklet 12 halaman berwarna yang gak ada di Official Art Collection!

Iiih bikin ngiri ya...? Tapi AD harus berpuas hati dengan versi biasanya saja. Abis klo pesen ke RQ kena biaya shipping mahal lagi!

Gak sabar deh nunggu Desember... X(

Selesai UTS, Kehidupan Tak Biasa Berlanjut

2008-09-20T03:20:00.000-07:00

Akhirnya UTS (Ulangan Tengah Sialan) selesai! Seenggaknya Ulangan Semester kali ini cuma 2 yang YAKIN bakal di-remed... Entah kalo jumlahnya nambah ato enggak, waks! Jangan sampe deh.

Tapi aneh ya... Puasa-puasa gini yang curang tetep banyak aja!

Yah, seenggaknya selesai UTS disusul dengan banyak kegiatan yang "tidak biasa"!
-Pemantapan buat seleksi Pesta Sains!
-Bikin blog guru!
-LPKS!
-Bikin Cerpen!
-Bikin game!
Myahahahahahahaha!!!

Ntar kalo ada waktu dan kemauan, AD akan posting tentang hal-hal di atas satu persatu. :D

Photoshop Practice

2008-09-06T23:24:00.000-07:00

Hasilnya banner yang baru dipasang. Pake brush yang baru gw download dari animeshare.org.
Duh, hasilnya gak kayak yang dibayangin deh. Emang dasar orang belom jago... Pengen deh bisa bikin bermacam-macam efek kayak orang laen. Yak! Pokoknya sekarang hunting-hunting aja alat-alat photoshop yang unik-unik dan aneh-aneh!

Oops! AD mau ganti template blog dulu, jadi kalo blognya terlhiat aneh, jangan kaget dulu. Ntar bakal beres kok beberapa saat lagi...

What does my Birthdate mean?

2008-09-06T06:52:00.000-07:00

Seeing how Rarutos-senpai, Lazy-kun, and thunder-san had taken the quiz and posted the result, I wanna follow their steps!

Hmm, ini hasilnya menarik juga lho,

- August 8 -
You are very independent and fearless. You have a lot of pride in yourself, and have confidence that you can do anything you put your mind to.
Positive Traits: pragmatic, optimistic, idealistic, stamina, good judgment
Negative Traits: greed, obsessive, careless, controlling, thoughtless
'What does your Birthdate mean?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Hampir 80% bener!! Interesting...

CC's Tough Meeting

2008-09-06T02:41:00.000-07:00

Ehm! Kini AD sang koordinator Desain Grafis CC akan membeberkan beberapa fakta tentang rapar yang dilakukan CC sepulang sekolah hari ini. Denger! Ini mau gak mau, suka gak suka adalah FAKTA! Jadi, klo ada fakta yang terlewat atau ada kesalahan, jangan sungkan buat ngasih feedback! :D

Rapat ini diselenggarakan tanggal 6 September 2008.
Rapat ini dipersiapkan secara pas-pasan oleh panitia.
Rapat ini dihadiri oleh 35 orang anggota kelas X SMAN 1 Tarogong Kidul.
Kelas X-4 tidak hadir pada rapat ini.
Rapat mulai kurang lebih pada pukul 12.30 WIB.
Epul yang paling banyak omong di rapat ini.
AD membuka 2 notebook sekaligus (REKOR!) selama rapat ini.
Ini bukan rapat yang dapat dikatakan formal!
Seluruh panitia berorientasi di sekitar meja guru.
Peserta rapat membuka kursi dan meja mereka sendiri.
Koordinator CC gak dateng di rapat ini.
AD berSMSan dengan sang koordinator selama rapat, minta feedback, dan saran-saran.
Rapat berakhir pukul 15.10 WIB.
Sebelumnya rapat ini udah 2 kali ditunda! ( thx, MONKEY)

Kayaknya cuman segitu deh... Okay, now people! Silakan kasih komentar, pendapat, saran, tambahan, apa aja!

Kekurangan game, balik lagi ke Mana-Khemia

2008-09-02T00:29:00.000-07:00

Game PS2 yang paling baru. Udah sih, pesen Persona 3 FES tapi kayaknya gak bakalan dateng sebelum sebulan lagi. Libur 4 hari berturut-turut tanpa main PS2 emang hambar. Mana-Khemia juga sebenernya udah tamat, tapi baru dapet 1 ending, endingnya Philo (Jess). Sekarang lagi coba tamatin lagi pake Japanese VA, rasanya aneh emang, ngedenger orang Jepang ngomong tapi sambil ngebaca teks bahasa Inggris.

Gol untuk saat ini : Dapetin semua ending! Total 8 ending, jadi tinggal 7 lagi, semangat!

Back to my own quiet life...

2008-08-22T01:53:00.000-07:00

Entah ini salah siapa. Apa gak apa-apa gitu? Klo AD walk away begitu saja?

Tadi AD langsung pulang dari sekolah. Mundur dari Story Telling Contest. Gak dateng ke NUKLIR walau udah diajak sang ketua KIR, Kang Haki. Dan tadi juga udah nge-cancel Debate Competition. Semua aktivitas minggu ini AD hapus dari jadwal...

Kalian gak setuju?!

Salahin si koordinator CC!

Sorry, Ka, kalo kamu baca ini, tapi AD emang mundur dari semua itu gara-gara kamu. Lagian kalo ada apa-apa kamu gak pernah bilang. Tadi itu AD sakit hati tau. Jadi pengen sendirian. Gak peduli apa kata orang. Sikap Aka jadi bikin AD pengen balik ke kehidupan lama. Kehidupan di mana AD gak pernah ambil andil banyak dalam hal apa pun.

Lagian, tanpa AD, semua tetap baik-baik, kan?

Masih ada harapan! Pesta Rakyat!

2008-08-15T09:07:00.000-07:00

Inilah rekor kelas XI IPA 3:

-Basket = W.O. di pertandingan pertama.

-Debat = Kalah di pertandingan ke-dua.

-Bola Gebok = Kalah di pertandingan ke-dua.

-Futsal = Kalah di pertandingan ke-tiga (kalo gak salah?)

Ironis, yah... Tapi kita tak boleh patah semangat! Masih ada pesta rakyat ini. Mari kita tunjukan kembali kejayaan kita yang tahun lalu!!

Bola Tembak, but AD calls it : Bola Gebok

2008-08-13T05:44:00.000-07:00

Bola tembak a.k.a. bola gebok adalah permainan yang pake bola dan terdiri atas 2 tim. Masing- masing tim harus beranggotakan banyakan. Lalu tiap tim harus ngenain kaki anggota tim lawan mereka dengan bola. Anggota yang kakinya udah kena bola harus jaga di pinggir area lawan.

Nah, di sini nih. Anggota yang jaga masih bisa nge-support timnya. Jadi klo kedua bola ada di tangan tim lawan, siap-siap aja ngehadepin serangan dari 2 arah.

Hehhh..., ngejelasin teknis permainan emang sulit. Ya sudah, jadinya, tim kelas XI IPA 3 tadi sore bermain melawan X 5. Silvie yang paling pertama jaga, tapi itu bagus lhoo, Silvie was a good support. Lalu... Kaki AD terkena bola dan harus jaga. Tapi rasanya menyenangkan mengejar-ngejar bola yang keluar lapangan.

Lalu... Hasilnya,

XI IPA 3 menang!!!!

Walau mendapat tatapan tidak mengeenakin dari sang junior, tak apa! AD senang dengan kemenangan ini! To tell the truth, ini pertama kalinya AD merasa jadi part of the class...

Proyek bulan ini, deadline akhir bulan. Tahapan : 5%...

2008-08-13T05:05:00.000-07:00

Serius deh, dispen tadi enggak banyak membuahkan hasil. Bikin blog guru? Yang 100 orang lebih itu?! Bisa enggak, kita?

Ya, ini salah satu usaha untuk mendongkrak nama CC. Langkah yang besar, kan? Tapi, AD pribadi berpikir ini adalah salah satu langkah besar yang butuh pengerjaan intensif! Dan AD tidak ingin diam saja! Walaupun cowok semua, AD akan tetap exist, itu janji itu!

Computer Club emang punya masa depan menjanjikan. AD ingin berpartisipasi dan membantu sebisanya.

Ayolah, CC! Kalian bisa bergantung pada AD juga! Gini-gini kan ane juga koordinator, bu!

The Computer Club

2008-08-08T07:26:00.000-07:00

Hmm, tadi kumpulan CC yang pertama setelah penetapan struktur. Bareng-bareng ama anak-anak kelas X. Jam mulai AD gak inget, gak ngeliat jam. Pokoknya selesai pas jam setengah 4.

Kita belom masuk ke perealisasian rencan 1 bulan yang waktu, which is the one that I've been worried about... Meh! Itu kan bakalan susah dan lamaaaa. Tadi itu paling cuma pengenalan, dan AD gak bakalan kaget klo ada pengurangan anggota kelas X di masa yang akan datang. Tipikal.

Oh, dan kayak biasa, sang koordinator tetap teu bisa cicing dan cinta mendominasi. Normal. Jangan salah, Ka, klo suatu ketika ente membaca tulisan ini, kamu bisa diandalkan, kok. AD akan terus membantu sebisanya. Cuman inget aja, jangan kerja sendiri. AD berasa enggak enak and merasa harus bertanggung jawab soalnya kalo kayak gitu...

OK, deh. Good luck aja CC! Dan semua anggota-anggotanya.

Rekor ultah ke 16!

2008-08-08T07:11:00.000-07:00

YAH! Ultah yang patut diabadikan dalam, sedihnya, memori AD...

Pertama! Triple straight eights! 08.08.2008! Hebat!

Kedua, no party! No presents! Hebat, bahkan AD sendiri tidak memanjakan diri saat masa yang "tidak biasa" ini!

HO-OH, rekor tahun 2008!

That sidebanner was made by ME!

2008-08-01T11:19:00.000-07:00

AD juga nyaris gak percaya bisa bikin efek kayak gitu!

Awalnya cuma karena BT pas siang-siang di sekolah, nungguin kejadian gak jelas. Kupandangi wallpaperku, kebetulan lagi pake wall gambar samurai Chroche-sama. Jadi inget ama sidebanner yang waktu Rarutos bikin buat blognya.

Terlintas dipikiran... Aku mau latihan bikin sidebanner juga!!

Background dibikin iseng-iseng nyoba doank, gak nyangka bisa tampil sekeren itu setelah dipakein filter n efek!
Terus cutting. Susah! Buat bagian-bagian detailnya AD harus ngehapus sepixel-sepixel. Untung udah biasa pake touch pad... Menurut AD lebih gampang daripada pake mouse, dan lebih akurat!
Polesan akhir dilakuin pas break dari ngerjain PR fisika, waaaahh! Bukannya PR fisika yang selesai, malah banner cantik yang kubuat!!

Tapi ini sangat memuaskan. AD sebagai koordinator Animasi + design grafis CC memang seharusnya seperti ini! (Ha? Animasinya? Ntar... belum kuasa saya...)

Pengen pamer sih... Tapi klo cuman 1, masih bisa disebut kebetulan kan? Ayo! Semangat bikin yang banyak lagi!

Everything is old, but there's something new...

2008-08-01T07:25:00.000-07:00

Cuma feeling aja, emang...
Entah kenapa hari ini I felt GREAT!

Walau ngantuk, tetep semangat ngerjain tugas!
Walau jomblo, tetep semangat hidup!
Walau punya banyak duit, tetep pelit aja!

Seakan-akan dunia akan kekal!
Seakan-akan waktu berhenti!
Seakan-akan aku gak pernah mati!

Ada apa gerangan?

Is it because my birthday is approaching?

Kelas lagi-lagi dirubah...

2008-07-28T06:13:00.000-07:00

Satu kata : Sebel.

Terlalu mendadak, terlalu mengejutkan. Jujur, AD gak suka perubahan kelas untuk yang ke 3 kalinya ini!

Padahal AD ingin suasana baru, wajah-wajah baru, pemandangan baru, suara-suara baru...
Bye-bye kepada semua hal-hal baru itu... ::hiks::

Bukannya tak ingin dengan kelas original XI IPA 3, tapi AD 'lebih' ingin suatu hal yang serba baru!! Ingin tantangan!

Tapi, apa boleh buat...
Temen-temen yang lain kelihatannya senang dengan hal ini...
Kalo mereka senang, AD ikut senang.

Apa boleh buat... Ya, apa boleh buah... *sigh
Lagi pula, senang =/= bahagia!